PICTURES!

After nearly three years we have finally had our first family picture taken.  Granted, it was a Groupon and I was not 100% satisfied with the outcome.  A little back story before I show you  the most beautiful family ever. Gunner refused to take a nap, and both of them needed haircuts so..... of course they both fall asleep on the way to the studio and yes, they both had to wake up and cried for about 10mins because they did not want to have their picture taken.  Thanks to Macy's we walked about a batman and gabba gabba rack to lighten their mood.  So now I can reveal our very first Reynolds Family Portrait. lol

A whole year has gone by

I cannot believe that it is almost time for spring break 2013. I created this blog to record memories, emotions and obviously my opinion because that is the only one that really matters...but I am not doing so well at being consistent, am I?  I have been thinking about it (blogging) but every time I go to sit down, something comes up and I never come back.  It is a new year, and big things are going to happen.  School is already kicking my butt, but I am getting it. Justin and I are on the road to recovery, I pray.  And of course, I  have the most beautiful boys and family that is forever surrounding me.  Pretty much since before Gunner could even drink a sippy cup we have been traveling from place to place like a little Gypsy family and life in general has not been stable for us at all but, I am going to make this year what every little boy would want. His family, lots of toys and space to play in and lots of one or one time.  My big boy told me the other day that his " neck is growed so big up his neck", mind you, he is 2 and I literally cried and replayed " Yes, baby I know".  I feel like I have failed as a mother when it comes to him for the way that our lives have been lately but I look at him and think, he is only 2, and know that we have a wonderful future in store.  

Spring Break

I am about a week late on the post but that is what happen when you have no choice but to wake up Monday morning and go right back to work.  The past few Spring Breaks have been nice but never fully appreciate until now, while I am going to school full time.  Tuesday morning the boys and I made our way down to Deer Park to pick up my best friend Jessica and her son Kolby to enjoy a day at Frobergs Farms .

Last year was the first time that I had ever heard of it and Braxton loved it, so this year I gave it a try with the both of them.  We were suited up for some strawberry picking, considering that it had been raining a few days straight before we went I know that it would get a little messy.

My Spring Break Commitment

As most people know this has been a pretty rough year for me and the boys and on top of all of that mess I am in school full time.  This makes me feel like I have no time to do anything fun and exciting with my babies so this week I am taking a vow to do something awesome every day this weekend.  I will admit Monday was a little " lame" ( braxton's new favorite word) but we did do lots of adventuring and came across our newly adapted snail.  I feel like I haven't seen one in awhile so me and the boys were pretty mesmerized by it and its little journey amongst the leaves. After the snail finally started slowing down, we decided to take a little walk and that was day one.  Day two Strawberry Picking with our Best Friends. To Be Continued....

The End and The Beginning Wrapped Up In One

So this is it. I couldn't tell you how many times I have actaully said that to myself and always seem to change my mind. I use to tell myself if I just gave it time or change who I am that maybe we would have a chance. We were so young and so in love, everything about our lives for a short while was like a dream but with like all dream you wake up. What i was awaken to was a life unfamiliar....When did it become that way and why was I living this dream when clearly his had a different outcome? I go over and over it in my head, months and years of life that I did everything right, and I am not saying to make myself sound better it simply is the truth. When something like this happens to a person, they make excuse, and find reason for the others behavior and worse of all blame them self. I have found myself doing all of the above but underneath it all, these problem are his, these decision are his and I will no longer let his choices and lack of life effect our children and myself. This once fairy tale life I thought I had is know a big question mark, all the memorable moments are tainted with the thought of other women in the back of his mind. So many people will give you advice on what and what not to do but there is no right way, no right words. Even now I question my decision and action through out the past 6 months. I gave it everything I had and even more then I had, stayed for what it seem like an eternity and endure torture and pain I wish not even on the naive girl that believes that her and him actually have a chance at something real. As crazy as it sounds, I am thankful for all the events leading up to this. I feel like a child again, God has given me the strengths and understanding to realize that I have no control over this life. It is not mine but his, and what he has planned for the future for this Lil Reynolds Family is so much bigger and better then I could ever imagine. Just the thought of what I know will happen, it just gets better from here. I will complete school and be successful, my precious boys will be running around like normal learning and experiencing life better then before because nothing will hold us down any longer. I think the hardest part of all this is just erasing that dream, the plan I had from the beginning, but plans change and so do people. At this moment the idea of a relationship make me cringe, I have buried who I was and become something different. My mission for the New Years, found Vanessa. I will breathe the fresh air and enjoy everything life has to offer. And one day, sooner or later there will be that one person. I will be his world, his breathe.

I love this guy

I love that the other day, I wrote about Justin and now this.  Let me say one more time how amazing this guy is. So I have been wanting a DSLR forever and hell-o they are expensive, anyways I always talk about them to Justin and he really doesn't understand the difference between and point and shoot and a DSLR so he just listens to me talk and I pointed out one in the best buy Monday night while we were booking our Florida trip.  Justin goes to school Tuesday morning and when he arrived home I was all crazy chasing kids around and cleaning when Braxton comes out of my mom with a Nikon D3100 around his neck and says " Happy Mothers Day". I almost cried but I was to excited.  I know it isn't mothers day yet but in The Reynolds don't do very well with surprises but I was defiantly surprised.  I was just thinking about buying a cheap digital camera because mine is broke and my lover went and blew my mind.  I love this guy

My Dream Come True

I was cleaning the kitchen while listening to Pandora and a Rascal Flats song " I won't let you go" came on and I had to come to computer to put down these feelings. October 2004, I worked at this grocery store in Magnolia "Brookshire Bros" I hated the job but I was a senior in HS and had bills to pay.  I was doing my usual duties as a checker when this extremely attractive guys comes in and starts working as a stocker.  Little did I know then that this guy that I had a high school crush would become the biggest part of my life.  Justin and I got married shortly after in June of 2005.  Going through marriage as a teenager was probably the most difficult thing anyone can do, and living in Korea alone did not help.  When I look back at the 6 years that Justin and have been married, I wouldn't take any of it back because in this moment we are so perfect. Justin is the most hard-working, self-righteous man I've known in my life time.  It brings me to tears to think about the life we both have had to endure through the military and  life in general . I am so grateful that we have conquered all. When it comes to being a Father, he blows my mind. After slave driving for me around the house and getting off from and already stressful job, he gladly accept to take over the ninja duty with Braxton.  Coming from a household where I never experienced a man playing with his children let alone being concerned, I pray thanks to God every night for allowing me to share my life with him.  Most young girls have dreams about the perfect guy, the guy you describe as the perfect husband to your friends. Lucky me I I have found that guy, and he choose me.  Me, crazy, loud, overly-sensitive and shy to be his partner for a life time.  I am not sure what I did to deserve such an amazing life, I am not saying that my life is perfect but I am happy with all the imperfections and my dreamy husband. -Vanessa